I guess I knew I would eventually, but it doesn't take away from the fact that it's happening now...
I hope that I can change how I am acting, so that I can still be friends with everyone. I know I don't need to talk with them everyday, and I feel when I do it drives them up the wall. I guess since they are online, I just feel like,"why not?". -.-
I'm really confused about Kara. She confessed her feelings for me over and over, knowing that I had feelings for Maria. I did have feelings for her as well, but my feelings for Maria were much stronger... When things went downhill with Maria, I did tell Kara about how I felt, and she asked if we could be in a relationship. I said yes. Kara is an amazing person, and I really care about her a lot. Still, it seems lately she has been avoiding me... I am not sure what I did, or what can be done. :\ I hope things work out though. If she has decided she doesn't want to be in a relationship, that's fine, I would be more than happy to still be her friend, I just want to know. >.> I hate not knowing.
I texted MAD today and asked how everyone was doing. I never got a reply. :\ This is the first time I have ever messaged him first, and I am unsure of if it was okay or not. It's just- I have no idea how Maria's therapy is going, and then Kara not talking to me...Also, Sharon has been avoiding me too it seems, and I want to make sure she is okay as well...
So, I forgot about doing those prompts, and I think I will start again. Since they are so short though, I am going to do a few at a time, since my answers are never all that long.
- What 5 websites do you visit often, and why?
Hm, I guess it would probably be- Personality Cafe, Facebook, Gmail, Blogger and Youtube. Personality Cafe is seriously the best site I've ever been on... I have learned a lot of stuff, met a lot of great people, and when I am bored there is a lot of things to do. I get on Facebook just to see how friends are doing- Gmail to talk with people over email, and other things. I get on Blogger to blog obviously, and usually I get on Youtube to look up music. - Name a totally useless possession and how you came to acquire it.
Totally useless? Hm, well I have an inflatable little yellow guy off of Despicable me lol. I got it from my mom when she bought the movie. She bought that version specifically so she could give it to me. I think it was sweet, but I dunno what to do with it. - What music album would be used for a movie about your life?
I think maybe Hybrid Theory by Linkin Park... It's the CD I have most related to in my life, and one that I have had the longest. - List your bad habits and/or addictions and what you have tried to rid yourself of them.
I think I am addicted to people. :\ I know that sounds strange, but like, I need to have those connections to be able to function. When I don't- It's like, I can't get out of bed, I can't think, I'm completely hopeless. Other than that, I think I have a developing hydrocodone addiction, but I really do need the pills for my back so it's kind of gr... :\ - If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be, and why?
I think I would change how I perceive myself. I want to be able to accept my flaws and move forward, instead of using them as a barrier between me and the world. The problem is- I can't seem to figure out how to, and every time I let my insecurities get the best of me, and it ruins a lot of my relationships.
