So,
I'm writing yet another entry.
I know,
I am obsessing.
I don't have anyone to talk to write now,
I feel pretty lonely.
I tried talking to Kai,
but she's watching a movie.
Also,
I guess maybe I just need to write, even if I'm not really saying anything.
Konan hasn't been on in a few days,
she's busy with her new job.
I miss talking to her :\
I really do only feel friendship with her,
but it's a strong friendship,
even though we've just met...
Maybe it's because what we talked about?
I told her I had already told people,
and dealt with the feelings,
but I lied.
She was the first person I told.
Ceres was the second to ever know,
and then I sorta admitted it on the forum,
but I still feel bad for lying to her. :S
What else could I have done though?
I didn't want her to feel like it was something I was still dealing with,
and plus, she has many problems of her own,
and it wouldn't be right for me to put my issues on her.
I think maybe I'm annoying Ceres,
I'm trying not to,
It's something I'm going to have to work at,
she's incredibly busy though,
but I think sometimes she talks to me even when she doesn't feel like she has time to.
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I'm kind of sad,
Keith got a graduation gift from uncle Tim,
Kailha is getting a graduation gift from uncle Tim tomorrow,
but I never got one.
I guess it doesn't matter, I should just be happy for them,
but I feel like I deserve the same sort of treatment.
Although, that one time when I was 7 I did get a bookstore giftcard,
and they didn't.
Although,
it wasn't because he didn't buy them one,
it was because Karen kept theirs....
So
I dunno....
I wish I could remember all the things that I've blocked out.
It's pretty irritating.
Maybe I don't want to know though...
It might be a good thing that I don't remember....
I hope when I see Daniel I'm not a disappointment to him,
I don't want him to judge me >.>
Of course,
I need to not have these thoughts,
or I'm going to be all awkward when I see him again.
To be fair I did run into him at the museum,
and things went okay,
although slightly awkward with my whole extended family standing there,
and him with that guy he liked...
Yeah,
I think it'll be fine,
as long as I don't act stupid. :)
Erm...
I feel like I still want to write,
but honestly, I don't think I have anything else to say.
Plus, everything I've said has already been said before...
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I still don't feel better,
but it always seems like it'll cheer me up before I do it.
